Snow rocks until it starts melting.

My Drawing

So the other day I felt really bad. So I didnt want to journal so I decided to draw. I drew a pic. Its not very good. But it aint bad. Maybe I will figure out a way to get it online. I will get yelled at prolly for posting it and not talking to anybody. Oh well. Thats another thing. I have no one to talk to. Not their fault, mostly I am waiting to find a good friend like that, and not make mistakes and force a friendship. Yea for waiting.

I think I am going to die. My stomach is killing me. Arggg.

This aint no apology

I am sad. I hurt a friend the other day. And it burdens my heart. I think if I was able to go to class today I dont think I would have. Because I hurt my friend. I know that this person might read this. Well this aint no apology and I will apologize when I see you next. I screwed up and just because I was stressed I took it out on some one else. Not their fault. Mine. But it makes me look at my self when I get hurt sometimes and think what caused it. Some of the times people are stressed and snap so I shouldnt be upset by it. Not that it excuses it. Just that I should remember to be forgiving and abound in grace in those times, as well as all my life. So yea.

And I didnt even but my sock on right. It inside out.

Blue OJ

So I am coming off of this hyper state, well not really, and realizing that I freaked out and triggered a manic state. Opps. No good. I started cleaning the stove, but then that took to long so I started my laundry and then that was too slow so I was talking to people and they said something about buiying something. So I went to Walmart to get OJ. I ended up getting it and three packs of Christmas lights a cooking magazine, and the plastic stuff to cover you windows. I sorta could call that a spending spree. SO I am knocking my self out. Because I am super hungry and still hyper and am a little bored. And I am being logical right now so I am focusing on this.

Blue OJ

So I am coming off of this hyper state, well not really, and realizing that I freaked out and triggered a manic state. Opps. No good. I started cleaning the stove, but then that took to long so I started my laundry and then that was too slow so I was talking to people and they said something about buiying something. So I went to Walmart to get OJ. I ended up getting it and three packs of Christmas lights a cooking magazine, and the plastic stuff to cover you windows. I sorta could call that a spending spree. SO I am knocking my self out. Because I am super hungry and still hyper and am a little bored. And I am being logical right now so I am focusing on this.

Blue OJ

So I am coming off of this hyper state, well not really, and realizing that I freaked out and triggered a manic state. Opps. No good. I started cleaning the stove, but then that took to long so I started my laundry and then that was too slow so I was talking to people and they said something about buiying something. So I went to Walmart to get OJ. I ended up getting it and three packs of Christmas lights a cooking magazine, and the plastic stuff to cover you windows. I sorta could call that a spending spree. SO I am knocking my self out. Because I am super hungry and still hyper and am a little bored. And I am being logical right now so I am focusing on this.

Seasons of ...

So how do you measure a life? In midnights? Cups of coffee? I keep forgeting. I try and measure up to others. Compare my self. Try and be sociall accepted. All stupid things. I must learn to love myself and be happy. My life is always going to hard compared to anyone because I can always choose someone with an 'easy' life. So my life isnt easy. Compared to me. So I am learning. I dont have a lot of friends compared to somebody. But I have enough. I dont fit in well at my school compared to that kid. But I have my niche at Mines. It is all perspective and remembering to look at the right one. I cant cook compared to .... Oh who cares, I cook very well because all good cooking is is wanting to cook, and trying. Love. that is the answer. You measure in love. Love of yourself, by yourself.